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Day 115 of AY20-21: limping along

Friday, April 2nd, was Day 115 of the pandacademic year. It would be a sparsely populated day with only three Learners showing up, with one of the Learners planning to be there for only half a day as she had a planned Girl Scouts meetup in the early afternoon, and Facilitator Ariel arriving late dealing with some insurance related issues because his car got rear-ended the day prior.

For this day, we decided that we would hold off on the Check-in and Change-up until Monday so that three Learners who were not present (they carpool together) could participate. In our morning meeting we each shared what was something that others could do that day to make us feel comfortable. The answers really highlighted the different wants and needs of the four of us who were at the meeting: acknowledge when I speak to you, staying at a pace I can keep up with (boot), going to the convenience store, and consider my feelings.

The request to go at a slow pace was because a Learner developed shin splints from all the walking that week, and was wearing a boot. We encouraged her to consider sitting it out for the day, and thought she would with the three oldest Learners not attending that day, but she was insistent that she wanted to be there. With her in a boot we felt that it made sense for us to slowly move toward the meetup point where she would me the other Girl Scouts, so we planned to walk along the south side of hike and bike trail toward the Congress Street bridge. This would allow us to walk on a softer surface, under more shade, and without the hassle and noise of car traffic.

I’ll be honest, it was a difficult morning for us. In addition to the low turnout (which can bring people down), one Learner showed up really upset about our focus on safety (e.g., drinking water, not running into the roads) and that energy stayed with him for much of the day. During the walk he tended to walk behind everyone swinging a long stick, which required multiple reminders to be mindful of people who are walking, running, or biking on the trail.

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As we walked down the trail we turned around a bend with a view of the lake next to a small hill next to a baseball field. That led to a moment of sensory overload:

Learner 1: what’s that smell!?
Learner 2: trash?
Learner 1: dog poop?
Facilitator Antonio: I think it’s a dead carcass
Learner 2: oh yeah, look at that!
Everyone: 🤢🤮

Another reason it was a difficult morning for us was that another Learner was having challenges engaging with others in a way that made folks feel good. For example, the Learner wondered out loud why a duck was always in the field behind us at our meetup location. We agreed he might be there for food, and he said that maybe people were throwing bread out and I said that maybe he was there to eat snails. He said I was wrong—ducks do not eat snails. I said I was pretty sure they did, because I have seen video of them eating snails. He said that ducks would not be able to break the shells, and I said that they swallowed them whole. But since we were talking about birds eating snails and the challenge of getting them out of their shells, I said that roadrunners can eat snails by breaking their shells on rocks. He again told me that I was wrong. I challenged him and asked him why he felt the need to tell people they are wrong about something when they are not, and I said that it was okay to have gaps in knowledge. This has been an ongoing conversation that we will continue to come back to.

As we continued to walk, Facilitator Ariel met up with us on the hike and bike trail. By this time the struggles of one of the Learners became worse, as he needed to urinate and there were no public bathrooms where we were located on the hike and bike trail, but at the same time he did not want to walk down the path to find one. Then, he suddenly walked off in front of the group looking for a bathroom, leaving us (including the Learner in a boot) behind. Fortunately with Facilitator Ariel present we could accommodate the different speeds of the Learners.

After the bathroom break, we agreed that we would walk north on the First Street bridge, and then walk down Cesar Chavez, stop at a roadside restaurant for some Mexican food for those who needed to purchase lunch, and then walk south on Congress to the meet up point for Girl Scouts. We would walk by the houseless encampment that we previously went to.

We soon came upon two Austin Police Department cops speaking to two different houseless folks, with one of them being very upset and angry at the police. With Facilitator Ariel present, I asked the upset person if they wanted someone to stand there and observe the interaction, and she said, “yes, please.” I looked at Facilitator Ariel and he said that he’d stay with the Learners, asked me if I was good, and then I fell back and made my presence known. I kept my phone by my side in case I felt that I would need to begin to record. As Facilitator Ariel walked away he had a conversation with the Learners about why I would choose to observe the situation, why he asked if I was good, and what risk standing there posed to me. It was a good conversation for our social justice oriented Flying Squad.

After the cops left, I nodded to the houseless lady and began to walk back toward the Learners. They were already at the meetup spot for the Girl Scouts with some of the Learners eating lunch. I got back just in time to see off the Learner who was limping, and then watch the other Learners throw a frisbee around with Facilitator Ariel.

Now with only two Learners and a stellar 1:1 Learner-to-Facilitator ratio, we talked about how we wanted to spend the rest of our day. Both Learners said the wanted to walk back by a fast food restaurant and a corner store for food, and they wanted to pass by the playground we spent time at earlier in the week. We had a conversation about the challenges we have had getting back to the pick-up point on time during the cycle, and our concern that if we stopped for food we may not be able to make it. We came to agreement that if everyone was able to drink 2/3rds of their water, make time for me to film the daily update, and get to the fast food restaurant by 3:00 p.m., that we could make it back by the end of the day. Suddenly a day of frustration from the Learners started to shift, and they became much more intentional. Access to sugar and fried food can be a powerful motivator.

By the time we got back for the afternoon roundup everyone was in a much better mood than when we were that morning. Although the large intake of water and a milk shake left one Learner not feeling that great in the stomach. At the afternoon roundup we did rose-bud-thorn for the week, we discussed what we could practice that weekend, and what we would do to prepare for the next week.

Meanwhile, at the other cell a Learner received a birthday card; there was lots of climbing up, over, and around obstacles; and another danger noodle was admired.

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Day 16 of AY20-21: the last day of the first cycle of our first pandemic year

Yesterday was day 16 and the last day of our first cycle of first pandemic year. I say first because it is unlikely that the pandemic will be over by next August. Well, the first pandemic year if you don’t include last year when we went remote after the first week of March. And our first pandemic year was extra since our calendar stretches into mid-July instead of ending in late May like most of the local schools. Although it was extra less painful because we didn’t mandate that Learners sit in zoom rooms all day, assign homework, test them, or grade them like some local schools did. Too bad most local schools reverted to mandated screen time, homework, testing, and grading for this pandemic year, for those who are remote. And if they are not meeting outdoors they should be remote.

Our morning conversation about copwatching and other topics with Heartwood ALC

Our morning conversation about copwatching and other topics with Heartwood ALC

Anyway, yesterday was the last day of our first cycle and it was also our second scheduled remote day that makes safely meeting in small and unfixed operating cells possible. Unfortunately I missed out on the morning meeting of our final day of the first cycle of our first pandemic year, which will just be called day 15 from here on out for brevity, because I was invited by a sister-SDE community to give a presentation and participate in a Q&A about copwatching, policing, and defunding or abolishing the police. The community is Heartwood ALC which sits on the outskirts of Atlanta, Georgia. Heartwood ALC has been a really great member of the ALC community, and I got to see them in action when I went a spent a day with them (a day is never enough to learn about what an SDE community is about, though) before attending a racial equity in Self-Directed Education summit they hosted in 2019.

In the talk I attempted to briefly talk through my unintentional journey into the world of trying to fight back against police abuse, brutality, corruption, and crime. While my story was necessary to tell, I tried to focus the takeaways on the institution of policing, the way that systems are set up to harm victims of abuse, the benefits of copwatching and other forms of direct action, and the reality that the struggle has no simple solutions. But then I addressed what I thought were possible solutions to the problem, primarily focused on defunding or abolishing the police. Facilitator Jennifer also jumped on the call after they finished with the morning meeting at Abrome.

After I finished with the presentation, I made sure that Zoom room 1 was set up for Facilitator Lauren’s brain blast offering, and then I tried to schedule some check-ins with Learners. At 12:00 p.m. I made myself a simple, delicious, whole foods lunch with lots of nuts and vegetables as I broke my 16-hour fast (and then was left wondering what the point of being so hungry was when I stumbled across an article that said that intermittent fasting may not actually work).

At 1:00 p.m. Facilitator Jennifer hosted a sketching skills offering, and at 2:00 p.m. I hosted a Free Write offering. No one showed up for the offering so I got some more work done as I took notice of how exhausted I was. I guess the first cycle really did tire me out, even though I had been doing a great job of eating well, sleeping 8 hours a night, and working out regularly. At 3:00 p.m. I had a check-in with one of the Learners that went really well. I wanted to make sure that they understood that while attendance is optional, it is awfully difficult to build community when they don’t show up to be in community with us. The Learner got it, and seems really psyched about the cycle to come. Then he explained to me the fascinating world of virtual reality hangouts that I did not even know existed.

At 3:30 p.m. we had our final afternoon roundup of the first cycle. Nine Learners and three Facilitators showed up for the meeting, which felt much better than the turnout for Monday’s roundup. A Learner who was forced to be remote for the first cycle of the year volunteered to lead the meeting, and she asked the group how did we do with our intentions of the day and what are our intentions for the rest of the day. After the meeting Facilitator Lauren and I stuck around to have a check-in with one of the Learners that was in our cell this cycle. It was another good check-in and we talked about a variety of topics and interests for a half hour until Facilitator Jennifer logged back on for our end of the day Facilitator check-in.

That evening I jumped on the ALC book group call (after saying I would miss it because I had planned to go to take a nap) and then I went to the pharmacy to get my flu shot (but their system was down so I had to reschedule). I finally settled back in at home around 7:30 and drifted off to sleep. This was a good first cycle for Abrome as a Self-Directed Education community heading outdoors amid a pandemic. In the coming days I’ll be able to better reflect on the cycle and what we can do to make the experience better for the members of the community.